I WRITE
Not only songs but few words, dare I call them poems.
Give it some time
As I hold my pen, I struggle to write
Have a lot in my mind but nothing on this paper, white.
I'll give it some time, I know it will come to me
and when it does, I will understand why.
Why I struggled to write even with a lot in my mind,
I just needed some time and it took it's timeÂ
and now my white paper isn't so white.
I can
Make you laugh, feel loved, and with my voice, an emotion.
Make you want to try something new, be aware of what's happening around you, remind you to take a step back and relax to enjoy the sunshine.
Share my happiness with you, encourage you to become who you are truly.
I can become an inspiration to you, competition to some and discouragement to none.
I can become what I want because I can choose what I can become.
I have the freedom, many may not.
So I am grateful for all the things I can do, because I can.
01.04.2020
Mission Failed
To let you go has been hard.
To let you go has been a process.
To let you go, I've been holding on to you.
'To let you go' couldn't be a success.
Sorry heart, Mission failed.
02.04.2020
Fingernails
My fingernails have grown with my insecurities and uncertainty of the changed situation around me.
Looks to me as if they are two weeks long or even longer.
I think it's time to cut them now,
I've had them for too long.
03.04.2020
WATERCOLOUR
Watercolour makes me feel a certain way.
I can see through it as it's very light.
Yet the colours are so vivid,
it brightly paints my sight.
04.04.2020
Me & You
You are my consonant,
I am your vowel.
Together we are a word,
they call it Love.
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05.04.2020
A bird on the tree
sitting on the branch she sings
'Oh! here comes the spring.'
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06.04.2020
haiku
MISSING
I feel empty,
what am I missing?
Ah! It's you.
I am missing you.
07.04.2020
A sakura tree
blooming pink, softly wind blows,
petals on the ground.
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08.04.2020
Morning haiku
Maya
Maya k hola?
timilai herne mero nazar ho ki
Maya k hola?
timilai paune mero rahar ho ki
Maya
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09.04.2020
an old song lyrics
KHEER
So, I made Kheer today.
So excited to try it out from the cooking book I got as my birthday gift this year.
Rice, Sugar, Milk, Elaichi and Dalchini on a saucepan,
turned the stove on, it came to a boil then on a low heat I started stirring and stirring and stirring nearly for 45 minutes. (I know right!)
Then I realised how the process of making kheer resembles our life.
Don't we all get so excited to try something new or achieve our dreams and goals with every ingredient we have in us.
Then, after a while we lose patience. 'is it even going to be good or worth it?', 'what if I fail?'
In that moment the only thing you can do is to not give up just like how I kept stirring and stirring and stirring the Kheer, adding more milk when needed until it was nicely cooked and ready.
Had I given up and stopped the process I wouldn't have been able to enjoy the sweet taste of life, oh I mean Kheer haha.
10.04.2020
|Kheer is a Nepali/Indian rice pudding, try it once, its the sweetest.|
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This Feeling I can't describe 11th of April
The Sun was bright, a clear blue sky,
few white clouds and birds flying by.
Pink blossomed tree, everything looked so right.
Yet,
I felt a heavy heart
and I don't know why.
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WE ARE TREES
As I sit in my garden, around me I see,
various kinds of trees.
Dark green, light green, light yellow green and a bright pink behind me.
Different shapes, different height, different shades of colour and different names as their identity.
Aren't we humans the same?
Just like the trees we differ in looks, height, shapes, colour and names,
but we all share the same earth where our roots keep us grounded.
12.04.2020
mid-day garden thoughts.
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PURPLE FLOWER
I found a purple flower amidst the green grasses,
like I found you.
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13.04.2020
BEACH
A wave approaches,
I see it and I stand still
Swash! My feet are wet.
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14.04.2020
haiku
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Let's fly
I want to fly like the birds I see in the day,
worry about nothing in the world and just fly away.
Will you join me?
Just this moment, be it 5 minutes or an hour,
let's get lost in the nature and live a little longer.
Let's fly with this beautiful gift and power of imagination to a place where we can reconnect with life.
Let's fly to the vast sky where our spirit calls us and we can't deny.
Let's live a little longer, let's fly.
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15.04.2020
p.s I really want to fly like a sparrow or a robin I see in my garden. Birds are cutest.
Ikigai
Ikigai is a way of life, a reason to live.
What is your reason to get out of the bed in the morning?
What do you most look forward to?
'I don't know what to do with my life.'
Actually, you do. You just need to find it.
Are you trying?
Let's just try a little harder.
We all have a reason to live; a purpose of why we were brought to this world.
You have a reason to live.
So let's find our Ikigai together.
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16.04.2020
WITH YOU
When you smile,
Every part of me smiles with you.
Oh My dear,
I fall in love with you,
all over again.
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17.04.2020
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REST
Sometimes I don't want to write,
make music or do anything at all.
I've understood that it's okay to feel this way.
My mind wants to rest after working every minute of the day.
So today, I'll just rest.
18.04.2020
ANGER
is also an emotion.
I lose patience,
Anger takes over me.
What I become because of it is still a part of me.
I am human and anger is also an emotion.
Just like how tears come out when I am sad, anger bursts inside me and shouts 'Let me out!'
So what is wrong?
You told me to let my emotion out,
so I did.
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19.04.2020
(a different way to look at anger.)
I WILL LOVE YOU AT ALL TIMES
Maybe this is the time to be by your side and trust you with closed eyes.
Have faith in our love to cross the tides of uncertainty and any waves that may arise.
Maybe this is what it means to love someone at all times, good and bad.
Love has made me wise.
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15.05.2020
(good and bad)
A BOX
In my mind, there is a box,
Jealousy, ego and self-deprecating thoughts I find.
To open or not is my choice,
that is why I open it every now and then.
I let it consume me and my voice.
There's too much noise inside there,
so hard to close but I'm trying, I'm trying.
23.06.2020
CUT THOSE EXPECTATIONS
I am tired of expecting the same love I pour out on others.
I am exhausted of people expecting more from me in every aspect of my life.
I am drained.
I have understood that no one will understand me better than me.
So I will cut these expectations, they're no good to me.
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drained
27.09.20